A day after valentines and my heart was broken

The Fault in Our Stars by John Green

Before reading ( when i got the book) : I was waiting my whole life for this book you see. So when I got it I was like “YES!!muahahaha!!Finally! after a long and painful waiting, you are here! In my hands, my shelf, my life!” All my friends who have read this book already warned me not to read it around people. But I’m a rebel so I did.

While I was reading: I started reading it last night. I slept late (past midnight) because I could not stop myself: my hands from turning the pages and my eyes from reading and my brain from processing. But then sleepiness poked me and so I slept. When I woke, I was tempted to open the book but I resisted. Today was the first day of our school fair so we don’t have classes but. instead,  manage our booth and all. My duty hours was from 1 pm to 3 so I had 8 am to 1 pm free. So I continued reading the book. The warning echoed in my mind but I wholeheartedly refused to acknowledge it. And then it came to the point where I went inside our booth because the bureau of eye emergency detector was warning me that there may be a big flash flood of tears coming and will be rushing through the cheek city. And yeah, it wasn’t a false alarm. Chapter 21 sent me an armor-piercing projectile of words. The very first words of this chapter abominated my life. I was expecting it, of course. But the intensity of the epic tragedy was just so life-shattering. So I broke down into a fit of muffled sobs and blurryfying tears.

After reading: Is it weird if I tell you that my mind is currently paralyzed in reading other books because all I can think right now is “The Fault in Our Stars” and Augustus Waters. And every time I see the word “stars” (writing it took everything) it’s like someone shot me with an arrow.. 21 shall be my darkest number starting today.. :/And, not to forget, that I had a fit of waterworks around a bunch of classmates and, honestly, it was totally embarrassing but it was worth crying for and I can’t freaking stop my insisting tears. Confession; I’ve always had a stopping-myself-from-crying-when-people-is-in-the-vicinity problem. So yeah, I cried and earned a lot of pats and hair-shuffles and sweet words of comfort due to pity.

thanks for reading my thoughts (blabbering). Just want to remind you that I write all this stuff here in my blog to refrain from having a talking session with myself because I don’t want to sound like Gollum. Keep stargazing and stay awesome ^_~

Sky