I just got home from our Christmas party at school. Everything was cool....no, everything was great. and then.... I don't know. Something came up and made me feel really bad. I also had a headache. Maybe it's because of this. My jaw ached from all the fake smiles I gave. I even turned down my friends when they asked me to go with them. Then when I got home, I felt like going instead. I tried to call and after the 2nd ring I hung up 'coz I changed my mind. My eyes stung. My chest hurts. I can't say this to any of my friends. I can't even bring myself to tell this to Daphne. I know she'd want to know and help. I'm scared. Scared to be judge for being OA. I guess I just don't want to hear the truth. I wanna be alone and start sobbing. I don't feel like reading 'coz my head is throbbing. I don't know what else to do. I can't even cry 'coz they'll hear me from outside. I feel so alone. So left behind.
Why now? I'm supposed to celebrate for my long break from school. Life sucks when it counts. I hate this. I hate being clue less.
That painful moment when all you can do is stare at each other. And what's worse is when you see him with another girl.
shit! why am I even affected..
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