okay FUCK! there I said. I hate this freaking life. I wanna disappear right now. Actually I wanna kill myself but despite this misery I still have the common sense on not committing suicide and lead myself to hell. I don't want to suffer anymore so I'm not doing that. I wanna die in peace and naturally and just rest. I wanna be diagnosed with some stupid fatal disease and then get my permission to sleep forever. Like some cancer. To make my death more heroic, I wanna suck someone's cancer and have it for myself. That would totally help right? That'd be a benefit. A blessing for both of us. I get to rest and the kid gets to live a happy and cancer-free life. I'm not saying this to make a good image out of my ugly self but I'm doing this to free some too long contained thoughts and feelings. And it is the whole truth. i wanna save kids with cancer and I wanna rest.

Sky