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Two possibilities exist: either we are alone in the Universe or we are not. Both are equally terrifying. 

~Arthur C. Clarke

I feel so alone...and it's terrifyingly sad.
You guys have a Happy Christmas okay?

Clue Less

Exams are finally over! I know I should be happy....right? but I feel like a mess. *sigh* all I wanna do is curl up and, for some unknown reason, cry. 

I just got home from our Christmas party at school. Everything was cool....no, everything was great. and then.... I don't know. Something came up and made me feel really bad. I also had a headache. Maybe it's because of this. My jaw ached from all the fake smiles I gave. I even turned down my friends when they asked me to go with them. Then when I got home, I felt like going instead. I tried to call and after the 2nd ring I hung up 'coz I changed my mind. My eyes stung. My chest hurts. I can't say this to any of my friends. I can't even bring myself to tell this to Daphne. I know she'd want to know and help. I'm scared. Scared to be judge for being OA. I guess I just don't want to hear the truth. I wanna be alone and start sobbing. I don't feel like reading 'coz my head is throbbing. I don't know what else to do. I can't even cry 'coz they'll hear me from outside. I feel so alone. So left behind.

Why now? I'm supposed to celebrate for my long break from school. Life sucks when it counts. I hate this. I hate being clue less.

That painful moment when all you can do is stare at each other. And what's worse is when you see him with another girl.

shit! why am I even affected..

Brownie Smiley!

 


:D Brownie smiley!! A gift from my aunt! wee. brownie for an afternoon snack.. Wanna have some? here → [::] ^_~

Norm

This is what I normally do everyday :) *sigh* exams in CL and Calculus tomorrow and I didn't put much time and effort in studying. wew, I expect to get an ace :3

Good night :)

New Song ^_^

Listening to Taylor Swift songs :)

I made a new song out of my blog post 'Invisible Visible Being'. I have a really unpredictable and crazy mind. pfft. I call it 'Invisible Visible' :D I'll think about posting it here or not. I meant the voice recorded one. I just don't have a nice voice. LOL xD So now I have to study.

Invisible Visible being

I feel bad for the Lady :/

There's this game show here and they have different challenge for today. The challenge is a group challenge. The hosts chose two leaders for the challenge and they chose the ones who were on the bottom two. Now they let the other contestants choose which leader they want. This lady only has 2 members while the other lady has 8. I can see the lady who has few members feel really down and isolated. She felt so hated and I can almost see her cry.

So I'll share my thoughts:

I know how the lady felt. I once has been on her shoes. I also felt the same way when I was younger. I know how being out of place and being intentionally ignored feels. When I was younger, I've been treated like that by people. Even now a days, I sometimes go through the same situation. It's like the society hates me the moment they laid eyes on me. I feel like all people disliked me. Right then and there, I wanted to disappear. I want to be invisible and just watch the people pass by. Watch them laugh. Watch them have a life. Without them even seeing and noticing me. It must really feel better when you're actually invisible. In that way, you know people can't really see you. You won't think they're ignoring you because they only exist in your world but you know that you never existed in theirs.  While when you're completely visible but then people treats you like you don't exist, that hurts a lot more.

I never really said these words out loud. Not to anyone. But right now, I feel like I have to post it here. Maybe, in a way, I can help people who felt the same way. Maybe I can, somehow, make them feel that they're not alone. That they're not the only person who's going through the same situation. That they're not the only invisible visible being.

Sneak Peek!

A sneak peak for Harry Potter and The Prisoner of Azkaban on PotterMore. This photo is taken from the first chapters of the third book on PotterMore and it can be explored from this Thursday, December 20. For more details, visit PotterMore Insider.

For those potterheads, like me, who haven't had any idea about PotterMore go visit this website. NOW!! It's an online game played by potterheads all around the world. Relive the book in a 'realistic' kind of way. Collect magic stuff, duel, brew potions, fight side-by-side with the boy who lived and be magical! Go try the sorting hat now and be part of Hogwarts :D

P.S.
 I'm in Ravenclaw and I'm proud to be an eagle. \m/ Just want to tell you that no matter what house you are in, you are just as awesome as every other witches and wizards from other houses. This game is also not bias. It does not mean that since Gryffindor won all the house cups in the books, gryffindor house also wins in this game. No they don't. Actually, Slytherine won the first housecup in this game and for the 2nd book, The Chamber of Secrets, the Lions won. So now, we're waiting for the third book to be open and explore it. Earn points and help your house win the housecup :D

Book Update!

All I did tonight is update my books shelf. I've posted some of my favorite series. All of this are series that I've already read. I also wrote a short review about the books. And as I know, I didn't put some spoilers in it so don't hesitate to check it out :) I'd be glad to give you some idea what to read in case you ran out of books to read. Check it out on my Book Shelf. Honestly, I still have tons of reviews to write for tons of books I've read xD and I'm sure I'll enjoy making it so keep visiting :D I'll update you guys as soon as I can.

It's almost midnight and I'm kinda tired. I definitely need some rest for my coming exams. Thanks for dropping by :)

Got Through the first day of exams

Congratulations to me. I just got through the first day of exams. Three subjects down, 4 more! I can do this!! I know I can ;)

No class tomorrow which means I can update my blog tonight. And organize it more :D

Watch out for more posts.. Thanks :)

NEW BOOKS!!

Smoke and Mirror & Stardust

Yayy! My mom bought me this two new books!! Such a perfect advance Christmas present! I've been searching for 'Stardust' for months! and here it is!! 

THANKS MOM!! ♥

Trevor Kelly ♥

Trevor Kelly

asfsdhfdjfh. He is so undeniably attractive and cool playing his guitar!! Trevor Kelly from He is We *.* a candy for the eye. Don't ya think?

Confession:

I have a thing for musician guys. Esp. guitarist or pianist. And who composes songs *dreamy sigh*

Listening to HE IS WE music while studying. I honestly can't study without music. That's just how my brain works. :) Examinations later. Wish me luck. ^_^

Test, pain in the chest

Whew. Haven't updated my entry for two days. Sorry 'bout that. I've been really busy. Life has been like this for weeks now. Anyway, tomorrow, our exams will start and I'm not really sure if I'm ready.. yet.

*sigh* okay..here I go..

Today, i came from a friends house because it's her brother's birthday. We had a little group study with my other classmate who also came. So, we basically talked about things aside from lessons. Of course that's what girls do :p 

 I'm talking nonsense right now. sorry :/ my head is still a mess.

About, Autumn, haven't seen him today and I also didn't try to look for him

There was also this unknown guy who called and asked me to be his phone pal. So this is what happened:

me: hello?
guy: hello?
me: yes?
guy: can you be my phone pal. btw, I lived in xxxx
me: uhhh,,okaay..
guy: so, what's your name?
      I didn't even agree about being his 'pal' and he's asking me my name? So I was like.
me: sorry, I'm not interested. First, I have to study for my exams.. second, go to hell.. and oh..btw. don't try to call again.like ever. I very much don't appreciate your calls. Have a good day! bye.
     then I slammed the phone.

That's pretty much what happened. Don't judge me. I just really hate trolls. And honestly, he doesn't even have a nice voice. Like a voice a cute guy would have. tssk. again, don't judge me. My mind is just a mess right now and the last thing I need is a troll calling me while I'm studying asking me to be his phone pal!! I mean, Dude, you just dialed the very wrong number and got the very wrong person at the very wrong time. :p

hmm.. what else?...

So, tests is really a pain in the chest for me right now because I received a failure notice in Physics and I seriously need to pull it up or else my social life would be over. You see, my parents expect a lot from me and the things that I could only manage is not enough. My dad wants me to get above 90% in my maths (since i have double math) and in Physics. My mom hates to see my grades decrease. If they do, they'll ground me which can mean the end of my world. 

sorry, This is just not the right time to share..LOL. I'll tell you more about myself next time. After exams. After all this crap is finished. The only things that are on my head right now is the stuff I studied. and I don't want to start telling you about it now.

So...I guess I'll tell you more next time.. Thanks for the time though. I appreciate it. Sorry for my nonsense bluffs.

Wonderful Day! :)

Hiya readers! How are you?

I had a very wonderful day :) so, to start... It's a good day because my crush said 'hi'. Just 'hi'. and it's enough :) i don't get that much too often. Especially now that he has(*exhales*) a girlfriend. Yeah, well. It doesn't really hurt. but it's sad to think about it. We also don't see each other pretty often because he's a junior and I'm a senior..but we're in the same age, so I'm not really 'corrupting minors'. so, since i think i'll mention him sometimes, how about we call him autumn. because his name has something to do with autumn :p I like him because he's really nice and smart and so fun to be with. He's a really good guy. His girlfriend is really lucky to have him. *dreamy sigh* LOL

 Jack Frost, Santa Clause, Tooth Fairy, Easter Bunny and Sand man 

Anyway, it was also a great day because me and 3 of my friends went to the theater this afternoon and we watched "The Rise of The Guardians". It was really cool and really nice. Jack Frost is so darn handsome... and sandman!!!ohh, he is so cute! I wanna pinch him and hug him tightly!!! And tooth Fairy has purple eyes!! i love purple♥.So,  I like the plot, the graphics and the production. It so so so cool. So to those who wanna watch it, GO ON!!!

Third, it's because I finally found "Sepulchre"! I've been looking for it in ages! It's the second book of the langue-doc series. (BTW, FYI, I am a wide reader and I'm in love with books.) So now, all I have to find is "Citadel", the third book, and my langue-doc series collection would be complete! Yaayy!

aaand, my heart just kinda ached a bit. "The Hobbit" is showing in theaters! And I can't watch it till my exams are over which will be next week. When we exited the theaters a while ago, people are lining up to watch the hobbit!! *sob sob sob* I'm so jealous! The line was so long though and i don't like waiting.. but I have to wait till next week to really watch it. I wanted to read the book first though. But I haven't bought the book yet sooo, I have to watch the movie first. Because I really really wanna watch the movie in theaters, not just in a DVD. It's gonna be way cooler and real that way.




So, the day is gonna be over in a few hours and it's gonna be another new day till then. So, see ya tomorrow! :) Thanks for reading my entry today. It's really weight-lifting to share what I'm really feeling inside ^_^

Who Am I

Hey there readers! So first, I want to tell you that this blog is gonna be my 'online diary'. I'm gonna post all the things that happen in my life. I have my own journal but writing it without someone reading it and, possibly, learning from it is useless. So I decided to make a blog that's gonna be my online diary. I hope you'd respect me by not commenting harshly. Comments, advice and opinions are very much welcome. Also, I won't be giving too much info about myself for my own safety.

So, to begin.. My name is Sky. I'm 15 years old and I'm in grade 10. I'm an only child but I have 3 siblings from my fathers side. I'm not really sure if I can still be called an only child in my situation. Anyway, among the four of us I am the youngest. BTW, I'm female. And I currently live with my dad and his other family because their house is just a walking distance from my school. My mother visits me here every day except weekends. You might wonder how come my mom can freely visit me at my dad's house where his other family lives. It's because, believe it or not, my mom and step mom are close friends. They hang out with each other pretty much often. And for my siblings, at first they always gang up on me. They were jealous because my always favors me more. They also make me jealous by buying stuffs for each other except for me. You know, things like that. But eventually, that changed a few years back. When I was in grade 7, they started to like me. I think it's because they were starting to accept me as a sibling. And years passed, our relationship got better and better. We already get along pretty well right now. So..I pretty much have 4 parents( my mom also has her own husband, my step dad). Even though my family is sort of a mess,  I think it's pretty cool. They didn't treat me as bad as how kids like me were treated in some movies. I am treated really nicely from both two parties.

That's pretty much my life. Thank you for reading patiently and I hope you keep that up :) It's much appreciated